Shopping Online

About Me

RSS

原谅我 因为我就是 这样的女生

此时此刻的心情很复杂,
或许这些感觉,明天回想起来,
只会觉得自己很肤浅。

心里的挣扎与不安,
我,
真的不懂。

今天是八月的第一天,
还以为将是一个好的开始。


(一)
不知不觉,开始喜欢上自己一个人
一个人
想去哪,就去哪
想吃什么,就吃什么
根本不用把自己搞得那么累
为了什么?
配合大家

以前很幼稚的认为
那些独自进餐的人很可怜
还很骄傲的认为自己绝对不会一个人做种种事情

或许,真的领悟到一些事情吧
朋友,
是,他们都是我的朋友
可是,
朋友还是朋友

现在,
我会常对自己说
在这世界上,没有谁有义务对谁好

人的本性,无可否认
是有私心的
我们都是独自一个人
路还是要走下去。

就像上几个星期,大前天,昨天。。
今天,
自己驾车,吃午餐,去书轩温习功课。

过程有些不顺,
就认为自己很倒霉,
回想,
那只不过是个`没那么幸运`的小事吧。
相信往后的日子还会更多。

这些一个人的事情,
是我以前想也没想过的。
朋友或许会说,
我很自私,
没邀他们。

我只是偶尔
想要自己一个人的宁静。

不过,我还是认为
只是偶尔想放肆自己吧

大多的时候,
我还是习惯配合大家。

其实,一个人
没什么不好。

或许,你们都已经习惯一个人了吧
这算是我
迟来的开始

(二)
我不懂
只要我觉得那个人是我的朋友
我个人认为是真心,可信任的朋友
我就会毫不保留的把自己
给毕露

不过,我到底凭什么信任他们?
无知?单纯?
笨蛋?傻瓜?

天真的一个
‘你答应我,这是我们的秘密’
就把我给征服了

可能,
你个人认为,
这并不是什么不可告人的秘密吧

没错,
不是天大的秘密
可是,那份‘承诺’的定义
却又是怎么一回事呢?

之所以向你倾诉
是因为相信你
这些事
只想让你知道

你的劝解,安慰
我心领了

是真,是假
我不懂
我却还是当真了

直到,如此的一刻
我感觉背后被捅了一刀

我一直还无知的认为
每个人都是真心的
一直这样说服自己

可是,
一件又一件的事情
分明在告诉我
别傻了

是不是在警告我
真的真的
不要再随便相信任何人了

你的心情,悲哀,失落
没有人想真心理会
有的只是
那些可怜的安慰

我的真心
又被谁看见了呢?
没了,反正
大家都在努力的庇护自己
还谈什么真心呢
还是算了吧

另一方的你,
或许并不是这么认为
可从我这方打量,
事实的却如此。

真的失望透底了。。


(三)
对于某些事情,我只能说
对不起
真的,除了对不起

真的不懂了

真的很讨厌这样的自己
却还是如此

常埋怨别人不顾及自己的感受
自己却还是不知不觉地
没两样

有些事情
真的并不是想象中的那样
只是
不懂要从何着手

想保留那份真挚
也不想造成伤害

想回到的过去
实在离我太远了

都怪我
无情?
讨人厌?

还有
谢谢

真的
:'(

























  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

~~Good Bye 2009~~

It has been 2 months since i last updated my blog...

Time flies...
lots of things had happened in the past 2 months...
Due to the heavy work load of tests,assignments and presentation, it make me feel so lazy to update my blog...
Although now i should be preparing for my final exam...I`m still here to post my blog...
@.@
But those memories are so worthwhile to let me post it up here where by even if my pc,my hardisk or whatever are spoilt (*touch wood*)...
i can still refresh my sweet memories here....
However...it is impossible for me to write down every events so thoroughly already...
so..just let the pictures bring me and those who are viewing my blog down to my memory lane of the last few months of 2009.....


4/12/2009
It was ejiat`s birthday...
had a fun day of buying present and prepare for the party...

11/12/2009
I had my english group presentation with daddy(kiko) and mommy(meow)...
We planned a series of things to present that day in order to catch attention...
However,our hardwork was in vain...
anyway,at least we learnt something and enjoyed the process of practised hard~!!




12-14/12/2009
Went to KL with parents and uncle Andrew and family...
As usual,we had a 2night-3 day-stay in Cititel...
We did some shopping in Midvalley,The Gardens,1 Utama,The Curve,Ikea...
Compared to those in Penang,the christmas decoration there was marvellous...
Besides,the performance was very interesting as in the performers (from western country),attires,music,effects....
Obviously..I`m the one who gained the greatest `harvest`...
Endless thanks to my parents for so `sayang` me....
I enjoy the trip very much...


18/12/2009
My dad`s office staff came to our house for a visit....
(those picture were in my dad`s camera...and i lazy to transfer..so no picture here..=.=)
24/12/2009
Went out with Friday`s gang and cousin for christmas celebration..
we wacthed 2 movies that day which include Couple Retreat(i dont really like this movie)
and AVATAR 3D~!!
do you know why i typed that in big alphabets??haha..
because i love this movie so much...
This movie really touching...and it`s meaningful....really like it...
Then we had our dinner at Kim Gary...
and went to G Spot for the first time..
i looked so noob and felt that myself was too childish to fit into that `adult` place..lolx..
However,it was a not-so-bad experience...quite enjoyed it...

25/12/2009
Had own christmas dinner at home....
With family ,relatives and friends....
Quite enjoyable but tiring...
(those photo also in my dad`s camera...sigh...)
26/12/2009
Once again...outing with parents and uncle Andrew and family after KL trip...
we went to Hard Rock Hotel...
Had buffet dinner in the hotel..
actually quite disappointed...sigh..
the price was not as worthwhile as the food they provided....
the choices were very few....and the food was so so....not as delicious as we expected it to be...
Anyway,we enjoyed the environment..
after dinner,we had a walk in the surrounding and took some photo there..
and of course we went to rock shop...
wee~~i bought a tshirt there...and got a special discount of 15% as uncle Andrew owned the member card...


31/12/2009
Went to Queensbay with winjing and jin ling...
As winjing is going back to KL soon....
we had lunch in Secret Recipe and wandering around the mall...
After that,they came to my house....
Our usual act...
camwhoring and chit-chat in my room...


At night once again went to QB but with parents and grandma for new year count down...
As we went there earlier..it was not that traffic jam and we found our carpark easily..
we had dinner there and joined the crowd for the concert..
i enjoyed Tank`s songs...
it was quite comfortable as there was gust of breeze...
the most interesting and facinating part was the firework~!!!!!
the 8 minutes firework was great and wonderful !!!
however..that night i was quite not feeling well as i had been attacked by gastric last few days..
which caused by a glass of tomato juice that i drank in the early morning of some day...
it infected me with fever,vomit and no appetite...and i played truancy for 1 day...
my mom told me that once i `kena`..it will always attack me..
aih..
i had experienced it already...sob..
hopefully this stupid gastric fast fast go away~~~!!!
That`s all for 2009...
good bye 2009~~~~
i will miss u~!!!@.@

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

~Sound Of My Heart~

It has been almost 4 weeks since my 2nd semester started...
Within this few weeks...
we had done the first test of management subject...
and even a small presentation about the assignment of this subject...
My everyday routine is as usual...
every morning force myself to open my heavy eye lids...
attend lectures and tutorial classes...
given homework..assignments...
Besides the tiring lessons..
we do have some fun hang out with classmates for lunch and tea...
After class then heading to home..
then online..chating..facebook..
sometimes do `struggle` to study and do some of my homework...
However...
I do feel that my life is empty and meaningless...
I also don`t know what is the reason...
Without my old friends in my everyday life?
Wthout those pack tutions like in secondary school??
Without any new update of myself??
Without any improvement in myself??
Okay..
i admit that actually every lesson in college is new info and new knowledge to me..
but sometimes i`m so lazy to pay attention in class...
but i think...
that particular irresponsible tutor also contributed to my laziness la..lolx..
she don`t even know how to teach..
just tell us the answers are on which page of our lecture notes..then class dismiss..
is that counted as a tutorial class???
~~she will ruin the future of new generation~~~
(my class is one of the victims)
so..all of us are exremely reluctant to attend her class....
*sigh*
Today really having strong feeling that my life is meaningless...
may be i am not doing my part well as a student...
i may need to complete my homework everyday..
and complete my assignment as soon as possible..
but not every day so laid-back sitting infront of laptop..
then rush for last minute work...
I don`t think that is the life i want...
I want to learn something new every day...
I want to keep myself up to date...
I want to improve myself...
I wan a meaningful and memorable college life...
Now is the time for us to enrich ourselves...
is the time to equip ourselves with various kind of knowledge...
perhaps i may need to do more reading to enrich myself...
and i seriously need to improve my english...
@.@
i am sure that you guys can know how poor my english is through here...
my vocabularies are always limited...
and my writing skill is terrible~~
do you guys have any better suggestions how to improve my english?
feeling that i am wasting my precious time every day..
doing useless thing every day..
talking nonsense every day...
this is not the life that i wish to have..
i must be more hardworking...
have more enthusiasm towards life...
strive for what i want...
pursue for my dreams fearlessly...
n live with passionate~!!
~~that`s what my heart sounds like today~~

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

fun before hectic life start~~

9/10/09


went badminton at ymca wif ejiat,rachel,pkm n kiko...
had lots fun~!!
den later we joined my orientation week`s leader for bowling at penang bowl...
did very bad today~~
aih..
oyaya..
i nit yur help d la..
laz time when u taught me..
i could get so high mark...
now i so lame..aih...
nex time we go bowling again ya~!!
i need yur training~!!
hahaha...


15/10/09


we had discussion for assignment of management today after class...
our topic is bout wat business would u lk to open..
den write the business plan..
we discussed til very high..
like really wan to open a shop ourselves..lolx..
after tat..
went to pizza hut at sunrise for late lunch..
keep camwhoring there..
so funny...
luckily not many ppl there...
lolx...
den we walked to gurney plaza...
coz we wanted to buy some materials for assignment presentation at popular...
class rep n jia wei..u both remember har~!!!
always hit my head..
i now become gong gong d la..
both of u gotta sit exam for me~!!



16/10/09

today...

our tutor changed the class to 5.30-7pm..

n our previous class was til 12.30pm only..

therefore...

my classmates n i grabed tis precious chance to hang out in redbox..

wow...

it had been so long since i laz went to redbox...

really have fun wif my classmates...

we even won a bottle of sparkling juice frm the games inconjunction to the halloween...

we sang for 3 and half hour....

almoz lose our voice already..lolx..

it was so tiring when back to college for lesson...

anywayz...Y1M4 really rockxXxXx...


  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

~1st semester break ended~

25 SEP 09
Outing of 3 of us

today...went out wif winjing n jinling..
gathering of ns gang lor..hehe
erm...
as usual lor..
we went to gp...
ate lunch at Winter Warmer`s(i guess my spelling is correct??=.=)
watched `ugly truth`...
laugh till wan faint..haha...
but..okok la..tat movie...
mb not tat type of movie tat i really really enjoy..lolx...
den AnW b our `prey` again..haha..
but not so bad la...we order 3 things n sat there for nearly 1 hour n cam whoring there..
hahaha.....
really really enjoyed tat day...
we shared lots of thg...
our gathering proved tat even our ns camp has ended...but our frenship nv end~~~
guys..keep in touch ya~~~
3 OCT 09
New House~!!
Today,i have moved into new house lor~!!
i really love my new house n my new room~~
tonnes tonnes of thanks to my parents...
for working so hard in order to provide us such wonderful house..
i really appreciate it....very very much..
daddy n mommy..i love u~!!!!!!!!!
i still wan to b yur child for the all following lives~~~~

5 OCT 09
1st day of 2nd sem...
so faz leh...
everything gonna start all over again..
am i prepared??
dun really...1st day even forget to bring calculator..
lecturers started lesson already...lk very rush..
hectic life is back to me~~
kylie..dun dreaming anymore~~!
get ready for it~!



7 OCT 09
Gathering of Y1M4
On top juz said wan to get ready for new sem....
but today went to gp wif classmates again..
hahaha..
we went there b4 class..today we only hv 1 class which start at 3pm...
so..we went kimgary for lunch..
den wandered around..
oso quite big gang..13 of us...
but it`s fun~!!
counted as 1st gathering of our class gua..
all of my classmates r nice~~
we mix wif each other quite well since 1st sem....
Y1M4...gambateh ya~!!!!

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

Raya Holidays~~

I think today is the last day of raya holidays for most of the people who are working..

while for those who are studying some may have longer holidays till the end of this week..
anyway..i`m having my sem. break...
i`m surely having longer holidays than anyone else~!!
let`s c wat i hv done in these raya holidays??
19-20/9/09
KOHESHJAPOZ BBQ GATHERING~!!!
went to hardbowl`s house for gathering n bbq..
11 of us attended the gathering..wat a great attendance~
*koheshjapoz,clap for yurself*
we were so excited when meeting each other...
i thk im the one who was the most excited...
as my heart beating fast all the way to hardbowl`s hse n even cnt sleep well the day b4..haha..
all of us still the same...
except...u guys became prettier leh~~~
i dun meet them for quite some time already....
therefore im not updated wif their recent life..
besides bbq...we exchanged a lot of gossips..
wif our `camp tshirt` wearing on together...
i felt the closeness n bonding between our frenship~~
thanks for our very warm host-->hardbowl...
she was a great host...entertained us so well...
very paiseh..we did appreaciate it very much~~~
KOHESHJAPOZ FOREVER~!!!!!LOVE YA~~~

21/9/09
my family n i went to visit our frens in butterworth-->raja uda there...
den...we went to JUSCO in BM....
bought some stuff for my new house there...
it was a great day too~~
i enjoyed it very much...

22/9/09
today was also a busy day too..
went to my new house in the morning to touch up some scratched iron grill..
then went to GURNEY PLAZA to do some shopping..
as today still have raya special offer....
going to be more busy for my new house preparation.......
im looking forward to moving in my new house~!!!



  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS

long long ago~~~~

i have a lot a lot of things to share here actually...

but i have been so busy recently until today...lolx...
therefore..i think i better let these photos to talk for me..
if not...i dunno how long my article would b...lolx.
23/7/09-Star Journey
that was my college singing competition organised by music society..
i went there becoz i got VIP ticket from my fren,Edward who is one of the committee of the music society...special thanks to him..lolx..
actually some of their voice really nice n their performance not bad...

28/7/09-road accident..@.@
my neighbour`s car was knocked by a van which was lost control when trying to brake at the traffic light near greenlane there...
i got shocked as i was sitting near the side being knocked...
tat day was the 1st day of 7th month in lunar calendar..lolx..

29/7/09- chinese valentine`s day
chinese valentine`s day is 七夕情人节...
my college`s chinese society organised it earlier as the real day fall near our exam period....
so..they sold lots of couple thingy..summore can dedicate songs for yur loved one...n even delivery service~!!!got many bears,flowers could b delivered to yur loved ones...
even during lecture..really funny..hahahaha....
bt...u guys noe tat i wun received any la..lolx..
so i bought a very cute voodoo doll n a couple keychain wif my fren,alice..lolx..(as she asked me to...lolx~!)
(actually all events above i have mentioned before in my wretch blog..haha..but repeat here again..is ok la hor??lolx...)

30/7/09-blood donation
our college`s 1st aid society oso organised a blood donation event..
at 1st i dare not donate...becoz i never donate b4..dunno wat is the feel..lolx..
then my frens kept asking me to accompany them...
at laz...i followed them to tat blood donation...
actually quite ok la..not as scary as i tot...



5/8/09-PR Fair
PR fair is a fair organised by students in public relation course...
erm...a lots of event la...gt sold digital thingy,charity thingy,tshirt,xgame n photo shooting for NIKON spokesman...we voted for 2 classmates of us..1 of them got champion n won a camera~!!
btw...5 of my classmates n 1 join a photo shooting session...lk frenship photo...
koheshjapoz~~!!i wish u could take wif u all~!!!!anywayz...i dun look nice in those photo..aih...

7/8/09-wilber~!!!!
guess wat...wilber pan went to my college~!!!!!
i bought his latest album n got 2 tickets for free...
but..not really a lot of ppl came...
n...wat a dissapointment is he injured his hand n was unable to sign album for us..
sob...a useless sticker was given to us n said tat it was a special sticker..
i cnt c any special in it...anywayz...we could shake wilber`s hand~!!!


10/8/09-oddyssey nite
oddyssey nite also is our orientation nite..also is our prom nite...
competition of talent n prom king n queen or held...
n ejiat joined the talent one..we went there support him~!!
he won champion~!!!gratz...n he was great~!!!!



14/9/08-semester break begin~!!!
today is laz day of our 1st sem n oso laz day of our final exam~!!
i went to paradise beach wif classmates to have a walk....
really relaxing~~~~

  • Digg
  • Del.icio.us
  • StumbleUpon
  • Reddit
  • RSS